Uni-Verse (One Song)

The drama of life is a psychological one in which all the conditions, circumstances, and events of your life are brought to pass by your assumptions. – Neville Goddard

The things that don’t make sense, don’t make sense anymore. When the things that used to make sense don’t matter and therefore – just don’t make sense. 

Refrain is to hold yourself back – to restrain – to control oneself, and also refrain is a repetition in any passage, poem, or song. It literally means to hold back as when put into musical composition, this section holds back the music and we call it a break. But the answer is always so obvious – our language so clear – if you continue to hold back any piece of you, it will repeat in a pattern that we still call breaks in your one melody of life. 

We are meant to face ourselves for the sake of our relationships so that this thread that ties all of us together in humanity stays easy, loose, yet strong and durable when and if there’s a tug. In nature, nothing exists alone. We are the human race –  we must move together. The knots that you tie, so they are out of sight, gives less flexibility for the rest of us. The distance between what you won’t face in your life becomes the distance that breaks your bonds of closeness with other people. 

The aim of a complex is to prove itself true – Carl Jung 

..And distortions and fantasies are the constituents of complexes. The relationships we build as adults are naturally tied to the relationships we had as a child, but not because we are searching for a parent in our partner, or that we find them, but just that we haven’t been shown all the angles of what we need to see about ourselves- and relationships give us this perspective to do so. How do you see?

One way to really see, is to close your eyes and then open them again, and this time upon looking, ask yourself: What if I had never seen his before? What then.. And, what if I knew I would never see it again? Why would it matter? – Rachel Carson

Chronic illness and auto immune disease is not how your body has abandoned and turned its back on you, but that it has been carrying the burden and protecting you from the pain that you could not psychologically meet head on. 

The overdue sit down and talk-it-through wasn’t possible – and maybe not even yet now – but perhaps now is a good time to check in with your nervous system and ask… Just to see if you are maintaining your strength, your life force.

You are only as strong as the things you confront.

You can see what you’re made of by what you make of situations. Are you protecting yourself so strongly that you will ignore anything uncomfortable, and regularly tell yourself that turning a blind eye, or sweeping something under a rug is peace. This is atrophy of your nervous system, that which regulates your humanness and connects you to the world. 

Can you lean in and listen to what you might be prepared to face now?

NOW, that it is not the precise moment that any of the things you walked away from and turned your back to are happening. 

This is how you are your best friend. Anam Cara – your soul friend. You supporting you to do things that you know are painful. You are as strong as you are sensitive and you have your back. 

Don’t worry about others being there for you. You be there for you. It’s also time that you stopped using markers of success of other people’s lives and a culture that has no meaning to you, or bearing on your world as a way to make you feel inadequate. 

You sometimes hear examples, watch movies, or listen to people’s reels on instagram and whatever other platform about their personal and professional success, and you want the recognition – you crave that public landmark achievement, but all of our greatest victories are private. 

When we keep a promise to ourselves, unlock a skill, how you are actually changing the way you respond to things, how you’re coming closer to who you said you would become. #winning

My personal favourite is when you find something – a little treasure that the past you, or future you put there so you could be reminded how fucking rad you are. All of time is here for you. 

These days leading up to September 7th (full moon lunar eclipse), and culminating on 21st (Solar eclipse), and even continuing to ripple until February of next year. This entire fall into winter moment is where we grant ourselves closure but for things that we had no idea were still thriving and making decisions on our behalf from the background of our hearts and minds.

The lunar eclipse was us (earth standing blocking the sun’s rays onto the moon) – meaning that some illusion was burned away, some fear of the unknown, or deep desire that was rooted in fantasy was burned away by the light and heat of the sun. The solar eclipse will have the moon blocking us from the sun and we will have a new and clearer perception about how we feel from integrating this information. The solar eclipse happens at 29 degrees Virgo. This is the last degree of that sign, so a turning point for all of us. This is not about astrology – this is about you. 

This turning point will help us to discover what supports us when everything else we thought supported us doesn’t anymore. These disruptions are showing us how growth through change – not stability – but adaptation – is what we are designed for.

This door (Solar Eclipse) will show you a missing piece, one that you already knew a bit about, but you will see it completely and it will change a lot for you and it will be surprising how the forefront of your mind is not the totality of what is on your mind. Each of us are seeking something different, but this is related to something that was draining you and now seeing it, feels like completion. You will give yourself permission to untie your knots, dissolve and welcome the new form that honours everything and nothing at the same time. This is the moment that things start to lose their sense and with that, all is possible, all is accepted, all is worthy, all is right –  because you are not separate from anything and nothing is what you need. 

Since September of last year until now, we have been through what is the window shopping of our new life. The new choices, lifestyle, work, friends, relationships, etc. all the accoutrements we could have imagined calling into existence and it felt really good. Some moments were just incredibly amazing. It was almost surreal… and this was awesome indeed. Saturn was a huge part of this as he is giving great rewards to those that have been dedicated – but then he went back into Pisces: The One Drop – the dissolution of what it means to blend into the ocean, like a note in the Uni-Verse (One Song.) The two fish swimming in opposite directions and whirlpool between is Piscean Wisdom.

Saturn is asking you to go inwards to assess your spiritual structure – for you to become so clear on what you deem sacred and how this honours your life, joy and timelessness. We have to ensure that we are worthy of this blessing that we had a taste of, so that it can return in full form in February.  It is not a test per se, but levelling up requires a level up. Saturn is all the limiting beliefs, the conditioning from any organisation structure that has put restrictions on your thoughts and expression. It is Father Time and the king of delayed gratification and therefore is always showing us that patience is the greatest gift we can ever give ourselves. 

This small dip back into the last cycle, (to Pisces from Aries) is a chance to clean up anything that hasn’t been completely sorted and/or finalised from your old life. This is not punishment, it is making room in our bags so that we do not limit the abundance of our future experiences. And it is only by getting the taste of the new life that we can see the old one with fresh eyes. To have gratitude for all of you, everything you have been committed to, that you have been confused about, the ways you were misunderstood, stuck, needy, bothered and sorted through what was reality, and accepted all the lessons that were beyond your control. 

It is loving where you have been, and all that you have done – that you can actually love your life and be proud of you for making it what it is. We are here for such a short period of time and have so many lives to create in this one blip, that we just absolutely must love all the rides we get to ride.

Pisces inevitably and perhaps without words teaches you the wisdom of contradiction and how you have been catapulted time and time again, just to learn that emotions are an experience, not an identity.

Because there is light in the shadow – we are just carrying it in our hearts. It is our light within that lets us see the darkness of what we are hoping to learn, master, and move through. Read that again. These moments of eclipses are not new age phenomena. Entire civilisations were physically and metaphysically structured in orchestration with eclipse energy. Ancestor = Ancient Star. 

Your anger was because you were trying to get someone to agree on the reality of your pain. We agree, all of us. Your anger is real, deserved, and also ready to be released. 

Your sadness is the love that you always wanted to feel, but with people that always seemed to slip away. It didn’t actually leave – all is reality – the love you had was the love you gave, and that love is still inside you. It isn’t going anywhere – it’s at home, in you. 

Your fearful will to control people, situations, bank accounts is how you try to make permanence of a passing moment. If you don’t need safety, you do not have fears and there is nothing to control. All of these isolated emotions no longer make sense when you understand their counterparts and that you exist on a spectrum between these. They are not separate nor are you. 

And you do not need anyone else to agree on where you are in this experience on the spectrum or that the extremes exist, and that you and all of us are feeling a lot. We all know. You are your love, your freedom, your sadness and joy, the impatience, excitement, the rush of energy in all directions – They are all the feels all the time! And good news is, they are the only things you are blessed to come here to do and be. If you do not recognise the wisdom of these contradictions: the continuum of this spectrum – you will become invisible as denying one end – dissolves the other.

I am begging you to not be a hostage of your distortion – ask if you are really seeing. If and when you pay attention you will notice that so many people do not understand themselves because they have made a duality – a myopic lens to view what is infinite becoming as something to walk away from. It is self-abandonment. If you forget that the shadow you look at is only visible because of the light that exists in your chest you will be a phantom of your opera. 

Be brave to go out there and live beyond the silence of what is civilised. Nothing is what you need. The most important things in life are mutual and free. Trust and respect for one, are things that no one can take away from you that you haven’t given them. You must be okay to feel the pain of disappointment – as it is how you know you are alive. 

People aren’t going to meet you where you are, and that’s alright – the love you showed up as, was the point. You gave them a bridge to a place that they wouldn’t have seen otherwise. Consistency in awareness of yourself, knowing yourself as you shift in each moment, is advanced living. No one can neglect your needs when you are bringing presence to your every moment and already taking care of you. You are worthwhile because your worth is in each and every step you take, thought you think, thing you speak. This is Living in Yoga. 

Be so full of love that you overflow and leave bits of it all over, like a random note, sticker, or graffiti that brightens someone’s day. Live like this. It is not indifference that keeps you sane – it is Magnificence. We generate love from within us. It is this grace that radiates and calls beauty to come forth and be seen. 

How did you learn to do anything that was hard at first and scary to master. You had to let go. You had to take risks. Living is the same. You are here to forever learn, and when you think, or behave as if you already know all outcomes, is when you are shown something that you still haven’t grasped. Those that come onto your path and test you – trigger you – make you insatiable with reactions are your medicine. 

But if you do not acknowledge your wounds, you will not be able to apply the medicine or receive the blessing that was sent to you, that your nervous system was ready to face. You wanted to go back to the pieces of you left behind, that is why you found yourself in this moment. You were ready. It is through relationship that we can go back because it was relationship that created the wound from the start- it’s the only vehicle to integrate new information. Like gum collecting bits of itself to be whole again. 

This isn’t about attachment styles or emotional availability but can be. This is for all of us to know that if we are avoiding our experiences, thoughts and feelings because it’s too heavy of a burden, then inevitably all things will be burdensome. You have told your nervous system you aren’t capable, which is a lie. Your mastery of detachment is contributing and investing in “dead life” and you Living in a Coma. 

If this sounds like it is you. Close your eyes – imagine yourself standing on a busy platform, the gust of wind, and the sound of train doors opening.  Get in. Sit Down. Close your Eyes. Stay.

This is going everywhere you want to be. Your life starts here. 

In the great words of Dave Matthews:

Forget about the reasons and 

The treasons we are seeking 

Forget about the notion that 

Our emotions can be kept at bay 

Forget about being guilty 

We are innocent instead 

For soon we will all find our lives swept away.